Capture14Praised be Jesus Christ! I want to give a testimony today about the love of our Father, who has not only listened to my prayers and brought me along the way of my calling, but has also given me so much more.

The search for my calling is connected with Medjugorje. I always had the desire to be married, but at the same time I wanted to live a deep relationship with God, and there was the question l was asking always – what is really my calling? 

Actually, I was experiencing a great spiritual battle between whether my calling was marriage or consecrated life.

The first time I came to Medjugorje in 2007 I was able to do a general confession and after that my life changed. During this pilgrimage I met the community Light of Mary for the first time. In January 2008 in Slovakia I applied online – this community prays for young people to find their calling. A couple of months later I got a letter telling me that my patron in prayer, who will pray for my calling with me, was Terézia Gažiová. I was very surprised. This way of prayer together for my calling started on 25th of March on the feast of the Annunciation of the Lord.

„...I believed Our Lady would help me, that she would lead me out of this situation. I prayed that I would strongly know my calling and be open to whatever God wanted; it did no matter what kind of way this would be…”

God managed everything and in 2010 I was able to come to the community Light of Mary in Medjugorje to live there for one year. I remember very well the sentence that Terézia told me when I was in the process of deciding whether to come for the year. ‘What you take you many years to solve in the world, Our Lady will help you to solve in one year.’ I see now that this was true. During this year in Medjugorje God gave me deep healing and many miracles happened in my family – one of which was that my father was healed from alcoholism. God sent me a lot of people through the community – he was leading me on the way of my calling.

One very strong moment was when a priest told me that on one side I want to be married, but in my heart I do not believe that it is possible, that I do not believe God has a man for me who will love me. I realised in that moment that I should change my attitude, that although I prayed much, I was lacking in faith.

I came to Medjugorje to dedicate this year to Our Lady and through her to God, and during this time I would not look for a relationship. When I was leaving the community in June 2012 I thought that I would meet my future husband immediately, but in reality there was still a long way before me.

When I experienced the biggest crises because of my calling I came to Medjugorje again. I hadn’t had a time like that before in Medjugorje. I spent two whole weeks crying. I felt powerless, desperate, because I did not yet know the plans God had with me. I experienced a resignation, a feeling that I did not know how to continue and that I did not see any way out. I felt that I could not live this way anymore, that I did not know what to do with my life. I begged Our Lady to help me.

„...During the wedding mass we dedicated  ourselves to Our Lady and through her to the Heavenly Father, because we want to be in her hands all of our lives…”

When I came home from the pilgrimage I called my spiritual director to give me advice on what to do. He told me to pray to Our Lady of Pompeii. This prayer is to pray three rosaries for fifty-four days. It is the same as what Our Lady is asking for in Medjugorje. I believed Our Lady would help me, that she would lead me out of this situation. I prayed that I would strongly know my calling and be open to whatever God wanted; it did no matter what kind of way this would be – marriage or consecrated life.

After one week I felt a kind of lightness and trust that everything would be good. After a long time of searching, God sent into my life a man.  During this novena we started to meet more and more often. God was demolishing my illusions gradually and he was opening my heart for this man.  There have been many situations where I could see God leading, but for me the most powerful moment has been this concrete answer of Our Lady to my prayer.

I was praying a rosary on the first Saturday and asking Our Lady that if this man was sent by her and that this was the will of God, that he would take some step towards me. Just at the moment when I said this prayer, I got a message asking if he could call me. He called and asked me to go out with him that evening. A short time after I finished the novena, we started to date. On 15th August 2015, on the feast of the Assumption of Our Lady – my favorite feast – we got married. During the wedding mass we dedicated ourselves to Our Lady and through her to the Heavenly Father, because we want to be in her hands all of our lives.

Now I know that everything had to be exactly as it was, so that I could walk together with my husband. God called us to marriage which we can live in a deep relationship with him. We receive the sacraments, we try to celebrate holy mass daily, every day we pray the rosary together with the messages of Medjugorje, and weekly we pray ‘family prayer’ (rosary, reading of Scripture, spontaneous prayer), which we believe we will pray one day with our children too.

We are not perfect, but we know that we stepped out on to the way of a beautiful calling and I experience deep peace in my heart that I have found my calling.

(Lenka, Slovakia)

Sources of images:

1) archive The Light of Mary;

2) freeimages.com

День: 11.03.2016